My sister is the type of person who would run upstairs with the president behind her, open a door, and you'd be takin a shit. Thanks, Jay! Hey, Mr. Pres, how do you like my ass?! Like, she just doesn't think sometimes. She always be bustin in the room while I'm gettin dressed or something. I mean, I don't give a damn whether she sees me or not, it's just the principle of the thing, ya know? I mean, damn, can you give me the courtesy of knocking?

I've been runnin around all day today. I had to go to ML twice so I can FINALLY register for my damn classes. But noooo. I can't. The first time I tried, the woman said I needed an unofficial copy of my SAT scores. So I went home to collegeboard.com and printed the shit out. I went back up there and some guy was there and he mad me go on the phone and call some number because I just fuckin HAD to do some new student orientation shit to learn how to use my course catalog (wtf?!), register, and get familiar with stuff. WTFever. Damn. Is it really this complicated to get into college??

I wouldn't say my life sucks, but certain aspects of it does. My whole life plans didn't work out with what I was originally supposed to do. It's such a long story. All I'm gonna say is Damn the fucking government.

I've been thinking a lot lately about what I wanna do with my life. I did a helluva lota research today and in order to really be a Forensic Psychologist, you have to have a degree in Clinical Psychology with some sort or concentration or course work in Forensics. Yeah...this seems like really difficult. And they make it seem like it's murder to pass ya GRE and get into graduate school. This makes me very scared. When things seem to hard for me, I go into super worry-stress mode. I try not to, but I'm so concerned about whether I'ma fail or not that I can't really see past what's goin on in front of me. Or that maybe I really can do it and I don't give myself the chance. Why? Because I'm too afraid of failure. Browsing the internet, I found this article on Psychologytoday.com that kinda helped me feel better. Basically it says that people NEED to fail to realize their shortcomings and learn to fix their mistakes. I agree.

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